In grade 6, I once had to make a poster with a group of classmates… One of the boys in the group was my biiiigest crush at school. We were using these really cool metallic pastel pens of mine to make the heading when he accidentally broke the one pastel. I of course wasn’t cross at all, no… I kept the broken pastel for years! – jip, very creepy… But seeing the pastel still makes me laugh.
I’ve been keeping a journal for 9 years now and have a shoebox for each year filled with letters, birthday cards, CD’s, photos, invitations and random ornaments (like the pastel) from that year, and I find looking through them so uplifting.
In a previous post, I wrote about the concept “As Within, So Without”. There I explained how your inner turmoils can reflect your outer experience, or how the state of your outer experience can reflect your inner turmoils. I used the state of ones room as an example, explaining how if you struggle to keep your room tidy it is sometimes a reflection of inner stresses, yet when you spring clean your room (clear the clutter), the feeling of turmoil lessens.
This year I am on a spring-cleaning mission. I started to feel like many things in my life simply didn’t serve me the way they used to. Time to elaborate…
Everything is energy. The items we own all carry energy: some hold negative energy, some positive, some just plain stagnant. If we hoard things, we just hold onto energies that clutter our lives. Often we keep things shoved away into a cupboard, thinking that they will come to use later on. We often forget that they even exist; yet we dread opening that cupboard.
Sometimes we deliberately hold onto certain items because we are afraid of letting them go. This is often the case with items that remind us of people we once loved, be it deceased loved ones, ex’s or lost friends. I have found this to be particularly evident when it comes to my iPod: the device is always full, yet many of the songs I skip the moment they come up because I do not want to hear them. Listening to them will awaken certain feelings, or bring back memories that I don’t really want to think about; yet I struggle to delete those songs. It is amazing how when you do, you don’t even miss them, despite them being really good songs. Plus there is room for new ones!
Clutter can take on the form of many things. It can be anything that doesn’t serve you anymore: habits, beliefs, fears, a poor diet, even people. When it comes to things like these, holding onto them creates debris: stale negative energy that keeps you stuck in a rut.
Ok, calling people “clutter” is really harsh. I realized this year that when it comes to people, the solution doesn’t lie in letting them go… You do not have to cuuuut them off 🙂 It lies in letting go of the aspect of the relationship that turned it sour, the “debris”. Often we don’t know what the debris is; just visualise the friendship/relationship without the stale/sour feeling and imagine it manifesting itself, even if it means you have to walk away for a while. If it never manifests itself well, keeping stale relationships is pretty darn pointless.
The universe is one big mirror. What you do is ultimately a reflection of what you want, and what you want is ultimately a reflection of what you do.
A very random example:
Most of us girls have a pair of ‘thin pants’ in our cupboard that we either buy to fit into one day, or haven’t fitted into for years… if you cling to your ‘thin pants’ telling yourself, “They don’t serve me now but one day, I will fit into them,” I guess you could be sending out a message of, “I want to be this thin.” However, in the meantime those pants hang there in the cupboard gathering mothballs and every time you see them, you feel despondent. You can’t wear them, you are not good enough. Still you cling to the idea and desire to be thin again, but knock a little bit of your confidence each time you see them… This also makes you send out a message of, “I am too fat,” which ultimately gets mirrored back to you.
The desire to be thin will never fade unless you want it to. If you let go of that pair of pants, you are not letting go of your desire to be thin; you are letting go of the “debris” that those pants bring to your psyche every time you see them.
This example is literal, but metaphorically it can justify why letting go of anything that bugs you even slightly is not such a bad idea.
Having this mindset also makes you take a step back and view situations from a broader perspective: if you feel “debris”, can you fix the debris? If so, do it. It’d be like patching up an item of clothing in your cupboard that you have not been able to wear because it simply needed to be fixed. Once you fix the item, it is no longer a burden, the patch of debris is gone… If you can’t fix it (eg. it simply doesn’t fit you anymore) let it go.
Clear out all the debris in your life. The first step in doing so is to face it… Open that cupboard that holds all the stuff that you have shoved away and forgotten about (or tried to forget about). Throw it out onto the floor and expose it. The exposure will reveal the feelings that these things create. Then decide whether items should be kept, could be fixed or should be disposed of to rid the discomfort that they create in you. And don’t throw them away… give these things (eg. Your expensive super skinny jeans) to someone who will appreciate them… They don’t hold the same negative connotation in another person’s eyes.
Do this literally to your cupboard and you will feel lighter. Do this figuratively in your heart and you will feel a sense of freedom, open and ready to welcome fresh new things into your life.
“It’s alright, cause there’s beauty in the breakdown.”
– Frou Frou